Friday, December 15, 2006
i suppose to go for an interview today at AMK @ 9am. but i didnt. cause im not in the mood to go. i cried from ytd night,11plus to this morning abt 4am. i hate to cry.i was sitting at bethel hall ytd. just looking at them practising for CATB. and i start to wonder. what in the world am i doing? im not even serving anymore. i looked at all the enthu faces, all the joyfulness. how it reminded me of last time.. when i was so on for God, so enthu and joyful in the Lord. ppl change, i think i do too. somethings are just not so simple. and trusting God becomes something tt is so hard to even think abt. all the things tt ppl said i know, but i just find it hard to go back sometimes. i think i lost my way. just like any other things tt i lost. it cannot be replaced. i cant find tt passionate for God girl anymore. maybe she's hiding, i cant find her anywhere. im such a sinner.its been a lonely year.. things never gonna be the same anymore. and without the passionat for God girl, i dont know what i will become. ya. im nothing all along. bye.
depressed&broken to the core.
you left me with no choice.
10:04 AM
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